This Life Of Mine.

2007-04-08T20:59:00.000+08:00

im really tired like hell today. hahahaha! cOz yesterday i went out the whole day from 4pm+ to today morning at 6am+. hahaha! Crazy right? But it was definitely FUNNNNN!
Yesterday went out with the guys to alot of places and i also got to go place i never go before sia! it's VERY SCARY. i feel like peeing in my pants.
At first went to eat at Kallang KFC with him because over there got freeflow water. But we alas perot only. hahas. then went to CArefour at Suntec to buy some stuffs. Ey yes! i saw Mrs Low and Mr Low you know! Mr Low very hansome! hehehe. Ok. after shopping,i and him otw to Mustaffa Centre. And he was very Funny. He scolded the mamaS "Dorang ni buat macam road bapak dorang je!" Hahahaha! Ok then something happened so he turn round2. Blueekk! After angkuts the budak2[HAHAHA] we go Eunos and have our dinner. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
We ordered white rice, BBQ Stingray,Beancurd with Beef and Butter Prawn. it was D.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S.
The guys are gatals. Lagi2 si Hazam.ape nak spanking2? hahaha.
Ok.then the guys ordered sheesha. i didnt jOin. i good girl Ok! =))
Mixed fruit flavour. The asap was foamy2. ey,the smell is NICE ok. Lagi sedap dari rokok [like duh!?] hahhaa.There was a secong round. Then slowly Din pening including me i think too MIXED until i feel keNONENG.
After our dinner,all the boys dont want to go home first so we go jalan2 first.
So he headed to Changi. But before reaching CHangi,we went to OCH. Dammit! Arghhh! SCARY,EERIE. ok,i'll not say what we did there cos it's damn scary. Ok,please i dont want to go anymoRE! But experience u know.
Then,stop at Changi there because wanna put on something in his "sayang". So waited. Din da kenoneng mintak aku picits kepaler BUT im sux at it.
Otw to send Din home. we stop at S11 to have supper. sambil tengok bOla disitu. Fudin kelakar to the MAX sak. ape kes nak dgr Hindustan. hahahaha! Tapi BESTTTT... we were singing in his car.
ALOT of bende merepek terjadi. One thing i cannot tahan ketawer is when he said this " barang sesiape yang mengatakan bahawa Islam adalah sesat,maka BUTOH la kepada kamu!" wakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakaka! fcuking funny!!!

Oh ya,B caught 1 ikan. Ikan ape tah.

dalah,kalau nak continue sampai biler pon tak habis.

im going to sleeeeeeeeeeeep like a baby today.

CHALOBETEY.

i Cornetto Royale Tiramissyou.

2007-04-05T20:51:00.000+08:00

im left alone at home with my mum now.
my dad's not home yet from work.
B is out to see lumo or lomu? i dont know la.

just finish cleaning up the house.
damn bloody tired but feeling satisfy after looking the house is cleaner.

i dont have the mood at all to go out with anyone today.
im sorri ok? i didnt mean to ignore your SMS. but i hope u understand.
u can say whatever you want. But i have other things to look after first.
if u're angry with me,go ahead. i know.

i think im going out later to have my dinner.

i feel like crying now. but i can't.
i dont want my mum to see & asking me why..

i really can't stand this anymore.

Only God knows what's in my heart and head.
If only i could shout now. i would.

Problems unsolved. &i don't know what to do.
I hide all my sorrows behind my smile.
But sometimes,i wont smile but put that gloomy face.
don't think that just because im always smiling,means im happy.
Besides, there's alot of things going through my mind.

i've tried commiting suicide. but i didnt.
i cant bear to see be separated with my love ones.
No point commiting suicide.
i don't earn anything. but'll lose if i did.
On the other hand, commiting suicide is a SIN.

mum knows that these few days im having mood swing.
no appetite to eat too.

ok. actually still have alot of things to say BUT im lazy to type.

im off.

CHALOBETEY bebehh.

"Say i love you. "

i Cornetto Royale Tiramissyou.

2007-04-04T13:34:00.000+08:00

haha.Ok im now in the Comp lab doing nothing. Actually now is PC period. what we have to do is "sexual Education" BUT we needto combine with 4N2 and 5n2 BUT they have something else..
SOOO,meaning.. we have FREE PERIODS! yeay!! that's why im blogging now. hahaha!

Hmm,today still 50:50. half sick half ok. i telan 2 bijik of panadol just now. now feeling Ok Ok la.
Today we received COUPON to get FREE ICE-CREAM!! i ate CHOCOLATE ICE-CREAM!!
Yummy Yumm~

im gonna have nightmare this weekend ALOT OF HOMEWERKS!!

OH GOOOOOOOOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!

im gonna have
English homework[ summary Writing ]
MALAY homework [3 karangan + TYS]

Tomorrow is ICONNEXION day! Hurray!
NO need to go to school BUT GOT WORK to do. haiiyaa.

i was wondering why people are SO K.P.O??

need to tell other people what i do and all those.

pls la.

im sick of this Ok!?

Argh.

till here. MAYBE i'll write later.

CHALOBETEY. i tiramissyou YOU.

2007-04-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

ok. im having stomachache right now. dammit! still doing my FnN Coursework but i dont know how to do that stupid squared thingy! [mampos bengapnyer]ARgGHHh!!
and ya, i want to thank my darling for making me understand what the hell is GreenHouse effects. After all this yearsss. Oh Goodness. hahaha!

Having mood swings. im half happy. half moody.

ok,im not gonna continue. anyway thanks to Mamat for the advise.

and yah im listening to this song called 'Grace Kelly' by Mika

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!
Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want

ok then. my stomach is HURTING like hell.

CHOLOBETEY bebeh.

i Cornetto Royale Tiramiaayou.

2007-03-29T03:51:00.000+08:00

Hmm,i just finish studying. haha. so hard working. Hmm. i studied Social Studies and FnN just now. it was easy to manage..
For social studies i studies on Health Care Services in Spore and for FnN i studied Proteins. Eh! i still don't know how to define saturated fats n unsaturated fats!! arghhh! But it's Ok. i can ask Miss Hidayah. right? haha.
and yahh! i went to see 'someone'. jeng jeng jeng. long time never meet that 'someone'. haiyaaa. he commented on my hair sia. he said i look '_ _ _ _ ' [find out yourself what is it.hahahaha] he's evil sey. haha! But eventhough he's evil,he bought me something just now. & ya Thanks for the treat! heh. We went to ECP. walk2 then sit at the water breaker. 10 plus we went home.
Oopss! i forgot! today's that 'someone' 's birthday!
happy bufday to you,
happy bufday to you,
happy bufday to yooooouuu...
happy bufday to you!

LOL. whad the hell.

okla. im going to bed ship now.

CHALOBETEY bebeh.

2007-03-27T18:37:00.000+08:00

Booooo..! haha!
i blog earlier today because after i switch off my computer, i will siting in front of my books already. That's why before i go off, i blog first.
Actually today my feelings are all mixed together like Rojak. Felt happy, angry, bored, stress and bla bla bla...
So can you imagine me banging my head on the wall with a smile on my face because im happy,angry,bored and stress at the same time? hahaha! WTH?! Nonsensical.
And ya! i told my darling that i was DAMN Happy that i chatted with Gary. Hahahaha! He' busy now, so i understands if he replied me late BUT at least he replied me Ok? Long time never see him. Rasaa rindu bangaats. Know what does that mean? It means I TiramiSsyou Gary aloooot... HaHaaa!
Eh and Ya! Just now. the Chemistry teacher. errm whads his name? Mr Ng? At first i heard Mrs Suganda wrongly. i thought she said MR LENG. im really DEAF man. especially these days. need to dig my ear deep2 i think. haha. And ya, i think that Mr Ng looks abit like Gary to me! To me lah. During lesson i turned a few times to the back to see his face. wakakakakakakakaka!!
Today im going to study Physics and Geog of course!
Just now i went to iconnexion. but i can't upload my PowerPoint for the Geog! IRRITATING right!? need to refresh alot of time but STILL CANNOT!
mailto:#^!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*@!%$^$

ok enough of scolding "GOOD" words. haha!

Haiz. i really don't know what the fcuking hell is going on here.
im confused.
im feeling down.
im DAMN BLOODY STRESS.
i want to shout. [but later people call police/IMH say i GILA. so cannot]
i want to get out of what im going through now.

really.
it's making me MORE & MORE & MORE SICK.
i think soon i'll go mad.
u'll see me IMH.
then you guys pay me a visit ok.?
haha. CRAAPPP. LAME sia.

k then.

CHALOBETEY.

2007-03-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

hmm,as im blogging now,im listening to this song.. I Don't Want To Miss A Thing by Aerosmith. I really love this song. it touches my heart in someway or another.
Today i went to catch a movie called Mr Bean Holiday with B and my uncle! Like ya,my uncle treat us,haha! Thank Youu! I can tell you, that show is FULLY BOOKED at 3.00 and 4.15. so no choice, we bought the tix on 5.15 show. The show was DAMN FUNNY like HELL and i was laughing to the maximum non-stop hahahahahahahahahahaha! but sadly, we 3 sat at the extremely front row. but hey! not bad lor! the screen much2 bigger. haha! i bought the tix at 3 plus la but we still have alot of time to wait till 5.15 so we 3 went to eat at LJS. heh.
Ey yah,my NCC girl fren,NurulHuda is working there sey. i say"hie!" and waves to her. but she like shy2. nvm. i understand. she's always like that. Then i saw Natiara with her sis n then came her mum. i waved n smile at her. didnt get the chance to 'salam' her mum. feel berdosa gitu. but it's ok. other time maybe? :) hee.
after we watched the movie, we 3 went to arcade. haha. as usual my uncle will be palying the soccer while me n B will be wandering around like kid's yg kurang kaseh sayang. haha! whad only. But then, when i was watching my uncle playing the soccer match, i saw this guy in red sitting behind my uncle kinda cute sey. hehe *cheeky*

ey yah! i also saw Kok Shang at LJS just now! at first with a girl at Century Square. i assume her girlfriend maybe? Then with Clement(ex 4T1 last year) and other guy at LJS. when he say me he was like 'Eh?'Then he smile2 like kambeng biri2 tapi tetap cute. haha! (kambing biri2 are also cute whad,right?) haha!

Yah, there goes my day today. and yes! i just finish reading the book called 'Cofession' . It's really a good book. but whad i cannot tahan. alot of RA stuffs. luckily it doesnt make me TUT. wakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakaka!
but yah,it's kinda sad story. i feel like crying when reading the book but i cant.
Dont ask me WHY. it's just that i CAN'T. haha! im thinking to much of my Cornetto Royale i think. wakakaka! WTF!?

k then. i wanna get the hell out of here. my eyes is getting smaller.

i cut my hair liao. i look more uglier than ever species in the world. FCUK.

2007-03-23T02:32:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i blog. i miss blogging! but im too busy to blog la. everyday, i go home i'll sleep first. Then at night i'll be an owl to do homework, revise my subjects. So im kinda rushing of time. i think that every second is so precious to me! i'm like "OMG.study,study! No time already! O levels's coming! Damn! So yah. Beside that i also have some other stuffs at home to look after.
Life is not easy for me these few months but i still move on. no matter what i still study. i'll sacrifice my time. Yah!one thinng now is that i've rarely chat! YAY! coool. i think that it's the best thing i've ever done![haha. what the hell!?No big deal right?But it is for ME!. lols]

you guys know what, im still now smiling to myself when i think of Shan Wee! He's so HOT n SPICY that i can't resist thinking of him? i kinda miss Gary too sia! Like long time never see his face and listening to his stupid,funny, LAME jokes! i miss his "RELEK ONE CORNER". hahaha! Of all things. But it's Okbecause there's still Booster Camp and this time i DIE DIE must take picture with him.

Today's day was bored, fun and STRESSFUL for me. The lesson is bored during English period. i cannot hear sey. but it's ok,kinda interesting too. Elicia,Serene and HK have already finish presenting their book review! Mine is next week n i haven't even start reading even 1 story book! damn! it's Ok, i still have time.

A few names in my head that i cornetto Royale tiramissyu. haha. wadever la farhana.

k then im off to my spaceship BEd. Chalobetey!

2007-01-28T04:37:00.000+08:00

Fuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...today is the very tiring day ever!! i've been walking since 10am till 12am siia..hahahaha.crazy right? naik kOntot sia my legs..
Today need to wake up at 9am..because i promise BB at 10am at usual place..He said 10 minutes gitu u naik the 22 bus becos he already said he's at the bus stop lorrr! so i just naik je la bus 22 yang datang tuu. Tau tau dier takde! sket pey panic! hahaha.. kelam kabot siak turon kat interchange,pergi kat payphone call BB cakap dah sampai interchange..nasib baik kol dier cepat2 siol...kalau tak VOLCANO eruption siak,kekekeke...pandai tak? wahahahahaha...
then firstly we went to lavender,took the train..tapi we clever..naik from tampines to pasir ris duluu..so tak ramai orang kan nanti? kalau tak nanti from tampines kene diri siakk,tak sanggup guey..
dah sampai tu tempat immigration,PACK giler siak[kalahkan orang kat Petaling siol]wakakakakaka...so after BB done with his business,we blaa..
si BB kol si Abg TJ,dia blom sampai Queensway..aku pey geram..hahahaha..
Then took bus pergi Bras Basah pulaakk,beli buku Ten Year Series For O level and the Guide Books...waahh,when i look through the books,it's DAMN GOOD and Easy to learn and study siaa...DIE DIE must buy ahh! .. after buy the book,ingat nak pergi makan yang ringan2..ingat nak pergi Mac,then tak bole Smokeee,BB pon malass..haha..last2 pergi kedai mamak..[tak pasal ah,tak cerewet,kekeke.belik teh and epok2..apelagi sebat jelahh..]
Then proceed to Funan..si Abg Berg dah tunggu kat sanerr.. pastu dah jumper si Abg Berg,rounding satu building siaakkk... carik barang2 diaa,pastu blaa pergi peniNsular..dorang nak belik baju and seluar...so ikotkan ajerlaaa...
Geram jugak sak tengok barang2 kat situ,nak beli je,tapi POKAI..kekekeke...
Then tengah jalan2,rounding2...skali terserempak Yakin aka BBoy Confident.. lain sey dari Yakin yang pernah ku nampak dulu..tapi tk pasal ahh..enta dia kenal aku lagi ke tak..tu pon aku tak amek kesah...lantak ahh...
pastu da rounding2..then we went to the building opposite of Penin,nak claim BB nyer Coffeemaker..aku ingat nak claim je dah bole jalan sia..skali ni "Jutawan Fakir" beli Speaker siot..aku da gerammm je..bukan geram sebab lambat..tapi JELES tauu!! hahahaha... Hazam,bole pinjam kan? hehehe..[macam paham je aku] then nak go Man U shop kat Tanling Mall saner... da pergi naik bus,dahh bersantap dulu kat MAC kan...satu2 da macam ular sawa pergi tu kedai Man U..i ate Prosperity Meal sia,same as Hazam..tapi BB eat MaCSpicy Meal..i get irritated with this mama keling pundek nyer cashier sia!! dalah kasi aku pey burger lambat! pastu kasi wedges yang regular size!! FCUK U la..!! geram akuu!!ALANGKAH SEDIH nya..kedai tuu tutop sia...mesti ni TJ dengan BB pasrah siot..hehehe.kan kan kan?
pastu takde kiter pon blaa naik 111 nak pergi Mustafa Centre.. skali da naikk bus..bus pon dah jalan kan... si BB cakap .. "sialah,asal ni bas tak belok siak..Jangan2 kiter naik salah bus tak?Jangan siol...tadi da Man U shop tutop..jangan ni tak belok suaa"
skali betol2 tak belok siaa..BB turon from 2nd level of the double decker bus,tanyer tu apek bus..kiter pon turon at this one stop and took another bus..
Dah sampai Mustafa centre,dua2 abg ni da kene sampok hantu shopping siaa...pey banyak barang diorang beli...perfume Adidas laa..SD antiBacteria laa..berus gigi laa..gel rambot laa..and macam2 lagi... aku da fikiran sia,macam mana ni anak nak bawak balek berbundel bundel siak..da macam pelarian sia..wakakakaka... then TJ tot nak naik cab,tapi cab semua mcm taik siak.. PACK siia..takde yang available..seme BUSY,ON LINE or HIRED.terpakse la naik bus 23.. hahaha..sempat tdOo..woooohoooo....
dah sampai Tampines then we lepak at our battlefield ahh..hahahaha....satu2,me,BB and TJ da macam orang kaya siaa...kekekekekeke....
Lepas je kiter dudok kejap,Fudin guey pon sampai...hehehe...
so lepak.
Kiter order air ngan Fudin nyer girl,Jane,kekekeke...
Hazam order ayamm...
da lepak2.. mam Hazam da kolling suroh balikk..so dier pon balekk dengan berbundel bundel..hahahahahaa...kekek siakk...
then lepak2 pey lepak sampai pagi sia..mater pon da stim...BB pon da ngantok...
semua BERAMSSS....hehehehehe
but seriously..
today is the most exciting day!
woooHooooooooooooooooooooooo!!
lain kali lagi ramai laaa...
Aku,TJ,BB,Fudin and Din..baruu gerekk...*evil1*
Hmm...k laa...

nak tidor siaakkk....

selamatttsss....

2007-01-20T18:31:00.000+08:00

haiz,today is a moody day for me. actually BB planned to go out with me laa..morning plan nak go lavender then to cathay to watch " Apocalypto"..then to bras basah nak carik Ten year Series..
but his sick..tak kan orang da sakit pon nak kluar kn?
pakai otak laa..
i dont mind ahh...[kirekan berhati perot siket ahh]
next time pon bole pergi per...
lagipon yesterday night baru lepak ngan budak2..balik pagi lagii..
wooooooo,record sey...

pastu petang tukar plan..
BB kluar nga TJ g Best Denki nak survey laptop..
BB ajak aku tapi mummy buat hal...
haizz...tkkn aku nak tinggal kan dier sakk
macam nak menanggis aku...then BB call.."u coming or not?"
i said,"u n TJ go ahaead ah,takod me tak jadi turon...i tknak pasal me,ur plan is ruined."
Hmmm,serious seyy...my head is craking.
i really dunno what to do now..
if only this things never happened,my family wont be like this...haizzz
da brape tahun seyy...
no change
no nothing
everyday keep repeating the same words.
actually i noe how she feels,but im just TOO STOOPID.
sedih sey..
sampai biler nak macam ni...
Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Ku...Kau ampunkan la segala dosa keluargaku dan kau sembuhkan la ibu ku dengan cepat..

otak aku macam da nak pecahh..
haizzz...

tak tahu la..

im really lost.

2006-09-27T01:04:00.000+08:00

Hmm,today i went to school as per normal.
Today i've got Geography lesson..we did the map reading again.
Haiyaa..so siiann..but nevermind,its good la actually because
Ms Tan is preparing us for the N level which is NEXT WEEK! OMG.
its NEXT WEEK guys not NEXT MONTH!
For Maths,Mr Feraj gave us Dunman's Secondary Maths Exam Papers for us to
do.After we had "completed" the worksheet,Mr Feraj brought us to the
computer lab just to check the answers. i was like HUH? we go for the computer
lab and login into iconnexion just to check the
final answer? Isn't its better if Mr Feraj gives us the answers in class and at the
same time show and explain the solution right? haha.wadever la k.
Hmm,then during English lesson,Mdm Irma gave us a worksheet to do also. Then she seats in front
and consult George n some of the chinese girls. When i was doing my work,WAHH..i suddenly YAWN[i opened my mouth BIG BIG but of course la i will cover with my hand.disgusting ryt?LOL.]
HaHa..then when i was doing my work,my eyes start to close and i was in my dreamland.But only for a few minutes.haha..Seriously,today was like very tired..very sleepy and very lazy..
Hmm,then yada...yada...yada...
Guess what? Today right after the bell to go for lunch rang,the whole class started rushing out to cabot.
including me.heh.except Georgina because he's the "guai kia" one. [last man standing laa kirekan] lol.
After cabot,me,Umai and Zaffy went to BBS to buy newpaper. Seriously,Zaffy is really crazy about Hady Mirza. LOL
Hmmm,then saw Khalil AKA bbOy Max in the BBS.he was looking around.We chatted a while and i went off.
After that..went to the Bazaar Ramadhan near my house area here. I want to see what they sell.I don't know how many times me and Zaffy had been walking up and down. LOL. At last Zaffy bought Roti Kirai and i bought Kueh Putri Salad and fishballs. haha. then went home. Had to prepare for break fast.
yada yada yada...
Till now la,very sleepy already.
Hmm,im havingneck and backache! NICE right?

Hmm,im waiting for that someone's reply till now.
Just wanna tell Him that i still love him.

2006-09-08T18:54:00.000+08:00

i'm...

i'm short but i'm high

i'm happy but i'm crying

i'm full but i'm eating

i'm sleepy but i'm awake

i'm shivering but i'm sweating

i'm careful but I falled

I studied but I failed

I knew but I forgot

i'm stupid but i'm smart

i'm lazy but i'm working

i'm angry but I laughed

I'm strong but i'm sick

i'm crying but I smiled

I failed but I persevered

I'm tired but i'm running

I'm young but i'm ageing

i'm alive but i'm dying

i'm breathing but i'm suffocating

I love pictures but i'm blind

I love music but i'm deaf

I wanna sing but i'm mute

I have no wings but i'm flyin'

I shouted but no one heard me

I'm so close to you but yet so far

I'm simple but im'complicated.